Life is crazy, isn't it? One minute you're fine, making plans on what you want to do tomorrow, and the next minute everything just flies out the window, plans and all.
Christmas literally stunk like a rabid skunk for me. Upon waking up I knew my knee was seriously in trouble, but I didn't want to ruin anyone's Christmas fun, so I hopped and dragged myself from bed to peer down from our loft that looks down into the living room so I could at least watch the holiday festivities.
I grabbed my demon-posessed, borrowed camera, hoping with all my heart that one of those packages under the tree held a new camera just for me. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of my camera that was stolen in October in Santa Fe. I was holding out faith that, Yes Virginia...there truly was a Santa Claus.
But my hopes were soon to be dashed.
These are the images that my camera-from-hell captured from my lofty vantage point. That's my daughter Jenna showing me one of her gifts, a plastic Parasaurolophus that she had asked for. Jenna loves dinosaurs and bones, so she was thrilled.

My twinlings only asked for 3 things this year, so just like Jesus' gifts, that's all that they were given. Oh, and a few stocking stuffer goodies, like toy cars and candy. And since my hubby and I are 'only-children' we don't have any extended family that send our kids lots of gifts. So our Christmas gift tally was rather sparse and simple. But my kids were quite happy with their gifts and spent all day playing with them. Or should I say jamming in their room with the PS2 Rock Band set-up. What did your kids ask for this Christmas?

What did I get for Christmas you ask? Hmmmm....Nothing. Nada, Zilch, Zip.
Ok, I take that back. My Dad and stepmom did give me a gift card for $30 to Target. And my friend and riding buddy, Val gave me a cute horse print oven mitt, brownie mix and a plate full of delicious treats.
But hang on to your hats.....wanna know what my dear husband gave me?
An empty box with an IOU for a camera that he had just ordered from Amazon the day before. I wish I could have been excited, but the camera he had ordered wasn't even in comparison to my camera that was stolen, and I was really wishing for one with more zoom and better quality pixels. So, I held that box and tears streamed down my face, like a big old baby.
I cried and cried. And not just about having no camera gift for Christmas. I was hurt that he couldn't even pick out a bar of soap or lotion from the Bath store for me...or a candle. Anything. And that my hubby didn't even take the kids somewhere to pick out a few small things for me. I think it's so important for kids to also be involved in giving and not just receiving.
But more than anything I cried that the barn looks so far away from our house and impossible for me get to. And I cried that I can barely take care of myself, let alone my family. And my heart is breaking knowing that it may be months before I can spend time with all my animals or care for my chickens and gather eggs. Life is barely worth living if you can't do the things you enjoy.
And right now my stepmom, Dad and even my kids are driving me a little nuts. I admit that I tend to be a control freak and I do like for things to be done a specific way, but I'm not overly anal about it. But being stuck in this bed means I have to rely on others to do things for me, and though I'm grateful, it's frustrating and annoying that I can't just do it all myself.
It seems that everyone is just ignoring me and doing things the way they want to and just telling me 'to get over it', 'it's fine', 'stop worrying'....words I don't have tolerance for.
While I appreciate that my stepmom is preparing meals for everyone, she is also taking over complete control of my house and even my kids. We're on septic here, but she insists on running the washing machine, dishwasher, sink water, and even taking a shower...all at the same time....while the ground is frozen. gah! Where is all that water going to go?!
And when I tell my kids they can have a treat, my stepmom will tell them no. Which causes my daughter, who has Aspergers and OCD to be majorly confused and break into meltdowns. When I ask my sons for help or to come upstairs, she encourages them to ignore me, and then she either comes up or yells up the stairs asking what I want. (Hello! I wanted my sons, thank you!)
When I've been on the phone I've seen her shadow on the stairwell past my bedroom. What is she listening for?
When she comes up to my room to bring a plate of food, she sees the cat and starts gagging and over-reacting and telling me to get the cat away.....(The poor cat has nowhere else to go, she's locked up here in my bedroom, along with her food, water and litterbox, while my stepmom and Dad are here.)
I avoid talking with her at all, because she's not capable of just a friendly chat. No. She always has to control the conversation with advice telling me how I should do things. It's always, "You need to do this or that" gah!!
I tolerate these holiday visits because I love my kids and believe they should have family around that love them, and since we don't have much family, I want to make sure they have every opportunity to spend with their grandparents.
But jeez! It takes every ounce of my self-control to bite my tongue when my stepmom lays my kids down on the sofa, when they aren't feeling well or are out-of-sorts, and then starts rubbing and rolling magnets all over their bodies. gah!!!
I respect alternative medicine, I truly do. I use herbal remedies myself, but magnetic therapy....used on my children....without even my permission??!
I really don't think I'm being unreasonable here, am I?
Ok, I really didn't mean for this to turn into a rant or a whine (I'll take brownies with my whine please. You keep the cheese), especially since my parents do sometimes read my blog (Hi Dad!). But I really don't care right now. Maybe they'll read this and actually pay attention, and not be so narcissistic. Maybe try to be a little understanding and see where I'm coming from here. I'm really having a hard time and don't need anymore stress.
Anyway, right after breakfast, Ranchman John drove me to the hospital. It was horribly painful just trying to make it down the stairs and out the door and into the back of my van.
The hospital was mostly quiet, except for a few nutjobs in the ER. There was one guy on the other side of me who apparently partied a little hard on Christmas Eve, got drunk and was taken to ER. They let him sleep it off...until 1pm the next day, and even fed him breakfast. A beter deal than the Hilton. They kick you out by 12pm. lol!
They wanted to call his wife and kids to come pick him up, but he was too embarassed, so they called him a cab. How does someone do that to their family? Drink so much, end up in ER, and then not even tell their family where they are...on Christmas?! What a jerk.
Everyone was really nice to me in the ER and a few of the workers came over to share with me their own horse related injuries. It made me feel alot better, especially from the people who still rode and owned horses after their injuries.
I had an X-Ray done, and no broken bones. But the swelling is so bad that an MRI wouldn't be much help for at least a week or two. So, I'll have to wait on a sure diagnosis. But the PA did do a manual exam of my knee and believes that my ACL (anterior cruciate ligament) and most likely, my Meniscus cartilage are damaged. Not good news. I still can't bend my leg or lay it flat. And the pain is terrible.
They started me off with Vicodin, but all it did was make me tired. The pain was still there. So they followed that up with a Percocet and Motrin. Finally a little relief.
I did take my evil camera to the hospital with me in case I got bored.

I was given a comfy leg brace/splint which is such a Godsend, now that I don't have to hold my leg to keep it from moving and causing pain. They also gave me crutches, which I'm also grateful for. Mobility is highly under-rated. Being able to move yourself to the bathroom, on your own, is a true measure of freedom.
So, with my new freedom of mobility gear, and my pain med prescription, I was in much better spirits as we left the hospital. (Do you notice the scarf and hat? I just completed them on Christmas Eve morning. They are made with alpaca, mohair and camel yarns. Very soft, too. Looks like, with my strict bedrest orders, I'll have lots of time to knit now. lol!)

And while I appreciate Ranchman John's careful Chauffeur skills, he's still in the proverbial doghouse for now. Grrr....

What else am I grateful for?
1)My laptop
2)Pillows
3)Chocolate
4)Tea
5)My family and friends
6)My favorite Blogs to read
7)All of my very supportive and caring Blogger Buddies
(and not necessarily in that order)
Thank you for the kind comments you've all been leaving for me.
I read them all, and they truly lift my spirits!!
Have a safe holiday weekend,