Yesterday was exhausting. The day started off with taking one of my sons to guitar practice, we dropped him off, then my hubby dropped me off at my Physical Therapy appointment.
The real work is beginning now. They started me off doing squats, lieing down at an angle. They added a one pound weight and I could tell I wasn't doing all that great, even though I felt like I was pushing 20 pounds. My knee would hardly bend even though I was trying so hard. It felt even worse, when another tech came over to check on me and add another 5 pound weight, but instead, said, 'You're only bending a little, so we'll just keep it the way it is". So I pushed myself even harder until my 15 minutes was up. Felt like much longer, though.
Then I laid on a table and had to lift my leg, and bend my knee using my upper thigh muscles, letting my foot slide as my knee went up. I put my all into it and still barely got my knee up. I felt like I was playing tug o' war with a tiger. My leg just wouldn't do what I was willing it to do. Frustrating!
I was supposed to do 10 of those and have a one minute break and do 10 more. But instead I did 12 and then a one minute break, followed by 15. I need to see some real improvement and just doing the bare minimum isn't good enough for me.
It made me feel good when Monica's face lit up when I told her how many I had did. She's not pushy at all, maybe that will change as we move farther along, but for now, she seems to know that I'm capable of pushing myself. She knows how badly I want to walk again and get back in the saddle.
Monica still thinks I'll be using crutches for another 3 weeks and won't be able to resume normal activity, including riding, for another 4-6 months.
That seems like a lifetime.
Monica finished up the appointment with a calf massage and the Electric Stimulation treatment. The massage didn't feel so great this time because of the numbness along the side of my calf and all over my foot. The skin just feels dead and is very sensitive at the same time.
She was able to loosen up the knots in my calf caused by the hamstring stretches I do at home all day. And the Electo-Stim treatment did a great job at relaxing all my muscles even further.
I managed to reach my goal of getting my Continual Passive Motion Machine (CPM) up to 40 degree flexion over the weekend and within the last two days, I eeked my knee up to 52 degrees flexion. My goal is to get it up to 70 by next weekend.
Somehow I'm supposed to get the CPM flexion up to 90 degrees before my rental time is over, which is next week. If I can't reach the 90 degree goal, then the Dr. may extend my rental, but the rental is $20.00 a day, of which I pay about $4.00 a day. Between that and the two $25.00 co-pays for twice a week therapy appointments, the costs are mounting. I need to get better fast. I keep visualizing myself walking without crutches and being strong and well again. Hopefully that'll get me closer to reaching my goals.
Last night my family helped me move back up to my tower. I'm so happy to be up here, because it's sunny, bright, quieter, I have my own bathroom (3 males using the bathroom downstairs was more than I could bear.), and I can see all my animals from up here and I can even hear the roosters crowing and the hens announcing their laid eggs. I enjoy gazing out the window and seeing the mountains, trees, and sky again. All of my yarn and knitting stuff is up here, too. So I can start and finish a bunch of projects now.
I don't even mind seeing the cars driving down our county road. They're going somewhere.....and I am, too. I like seeing the trucks towing horse trailers and hay because it reminds me of my horse and my goals of riding again.
I did have a little melt-down cry-fest last night, though. I just got so frustrated and upset that I have to rely on everyone to help me do stuff I used to be able to do myself. I'm getting fed up with asking for help and feeling like a burden and inconvenience. I want to walk and be independant again. It did feel good to cry and get it all out, though. Now I can refocus my energy towards healing.
So, Rapunzle has moved back up to her tower again.
Here are some pictures I took right before my surgery, using my new Canon PowerShot SX110 IS. There's hardly any snow on the ground today, as it's a beautiful sunny day with temps in the 50's. A great day for riding.....
Over on the ridge property, where we sometimes ride our horses, our neighbor's got some cows on lease. I can see them from my bed.

Let's zoom in a little

And a little bit more.

Those same cows sidle right up to the fence near our neighborhood. I love seeing them there because it reminds me of how rural we are. I spied these cows from my daughter's bedroom, before my surgery.

Let's zoom in a bit.

A litle closer....

Have I mentioned before how much I love zoom??

By the way, I invite you to visit one of my favorite blogs, a blog called
Our First Horse. I've been following along with them for over a year, even before I bought my own first horse. They used to live in a small town in Arizona, but now live in East Tennessee, where it rarely snows. It snowed yesterday, though, and their 4 horses were elated to be out in it, well at least two of them. lol! Check them out now to watch a beautiful and funny High Def. video of their horses
cavorting in the snow. I promise it will make you laugh! (Tip: watch it on full screen)
So, what kind of mooooving around have you been up to? What are things like in your neck of the woods?
From the Tower of,